EH! GUE SALAH APA KE ELO? BILANG DONK! LO MARAH GARA2 GUE TULIS DI BLOG KITA TEMEN DEKET? PLEASE...ELO TAU RASANYA KEHILANGAN TEMEN, APALAGI KITA NGGA PERNAH BERANTEM DARI KENALAN. SAKIT BANGET, TAU! Plese...tell me what I did wrong. I don't wanna lose you. You're one of the nicest friends I've ever had.
Readers, will you pretty please not just stare and read? Reach out and hug me, for God's sake! This is not the only thing that makes me down...
On a much more cheerful note, it's a month before my 21st birthday! Yeaay! I've got lots of ideas for birthday layout! LOL.
Wednesday, April 14, 2004, 08:12 a.m.
I think he rejected my testimonial...I wrote only good things in it, but still it's rejected. Then I must try writing only about things I hate about whoever I write a my next testis for. Yeah.
God I can't believe this, but I think I'm in love with my last ex! And because of that, although he's still single, I'm so so so jealous of those closer to him, especially that girl whose birthday party he bar-tended at (well, no one reads my blog, right? Except a few persons who I know are my regulars...). Heck, he didn't even remember my birthday when we were still an item! Well...I do hope this is just a fling that will last only a couple of months.
I'm feeling rather down and out at the moment. Cheer me up please?
Tuesday, April 13, 2004, 08:23 a.m.
Oops, I made a mistake...The concert isn't gonna be on April 19th, but May 9th instead. And you know what, I've been stripped off this year's violin examination because I've been playing ONLY pop in the past few months and to take the exam I have to go back to Etude, Minuet, and all that crap. Well, I don't mind being eliminated from the exam because what matters to me is playing the violin comfortably, and that doesn't include full-of-rule classics. I'm so excited about the concert. It's gonna be held at a cafe instead of an opera house, and I'm gonna have to harmonisize my violin only with a piano and a guitar instead of a contrabass, a cello, other violins, flutes, a piano and a conductor. But why do I have the feeling that I'll be cut off the concert too? Heaven forbid!
Y'know what Jean, it's just occured to me that Andy's been dating a girl three months older than him, just like you and Darius. And remember when I told you that it was just a matter of time before my crush, who's three months younger than me, asked me to be his girl? God, another coincidence between us three: You, me, and Andy. You and him share the same birthday, and I share the same birthday with his youngest half brother. And then both you and him are from the Hokkien tribe (except Andy's half German)! Not to mention other coincidences, and the ULTIMATE one: all three of us are Taurus. So, regarding the question of whether or not we were linked by blood in our past lives, I made this.
L-R: Andy, Nana, Jean in accordance with birth order
Call me hyperbolic, but whatever.
Sunday, April 11, 2004, 11:25 a.m.
I found a code of the hatelisting for stupid people on someday's blog just several days ago. Upon finding it, I felt somewhat annoyed, thinking that the hatelisting's owner must've been a snob. I think stupidity is relative. One can be good at one thing, but sucks at another, and you can't consider that stupid. Suppose you met a new kid in chemistry class, you sucked at chemistry, and that new kid labeled you a ditz because of that. You'd feel enraged, right? And still talking about stupidity, I can name about five persons who think I'm not their intellectual match. You know I'm suppossedly enraged at this, but going ballistic will only waste my energy.
Darling, I've got my karma. I learned the hard way how it feels to be treated the way I treated you. And you coped with it better than I did. Hats off to you, and now I respect you more! And you Honey, thanks for disliking anyone who dislikes me. You totally rock my socks, although you needn't do that!
Saturday, April 10, 2004, 08:59 a.m.
Maybe I really should seek help. Remember when I told you about my photographic memory? Well, if you think having such a memory is a blessing, think again. Lately, my childhood occurances often come to my head, and in my head they play as if they happened just yesterday, with exaction in every detail. That scares me, anyway. It makes me wonder if people who knew me in the past remember me as a silly and weird girl, and pass stories about my wrongdoings on to their mates. Plus, the memories of my old house also frequent my head nowadays. I remember every single part of furniture. What's come over me? Is it a mere longing for a less stressful period in exchange with with my current period?
Since no one I know in real life reads this, I want to dedicate this paragraph to my last ex boyfriend. Honey, yes you were a perverted older bloke who scared the hell out of me, but heck...this is odd...I want to be back in your arms! And it seems to me (hopefully it's just me) that you think I'm not smart enough...Just watch out.
Thursday, April 8, 2004, 10:08 a.m.