Nana. Twenty-friggin-two. Aucks and J-town. University freshman. The UI grad (class of 2005.) School geek. Family includes a weekend dad, a neat freak mum, and a 20-year-old bro currently studying in Tokyo (relocating to Ibaraki in March). As straight as can be. Romanced by no one (as of October 2005.) More?
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day two of pms weekListening to: Boa - Outgrow
I can't believe I'm in this. It sooo wasn't like me to break a silent treatment after only three days.
On heavy PMS. Somebody massage me please.
Look, if you yell at me and tell me he's soo not worth crying for and how dumb I am for crying for myself, that's not comforting me. Not gonna make me feel better. I already know that. I'm twenty-fuckin-two and people have been telling me that ever since I was fourteen. I don't want your wisdom because I've got my own. I just want your embrace.
I'm sooo gonna see Sandy. And hopefully I can see her all through the PMS, until I'm ready to kick arse again.
Wait. I changed my mind. I'm still mad at you. Otherwise I would take that one down.
Saturday, February 18, 2006, 07:48 a.m.
pmsMaybe next year I can look back and smile and actually thank god for having sent you to my life. But not now. Now I feel like making satay out of you."Guys who don't think you're pretty are blind."
I don't want designer bags. I don't want flashy European sedans. All I want is for you to take this goddamn thing called love off me. I'm already silly enough without it.
Aaaawwww Ferras! I wuv you I wuv you I wuv you!This will soon end, trust me. Soon you'll be completely free of this she-demon. What's happened to Casey and his predecessors will happen to you in no time. Listening to: nothing
Friday, February 17, 2006, 11:47 p.m.
apaan seh...Listening to: nothing
Today's best piece of advice: never cry for anyone who's not willing to fight for you.
Well. Maybe I should relax and enjoy life. Never mind that I'm not on the same train as most other 22-year-olds. Never mind that I don't have a job and am still a university freshman. Never mind that I don't have a boyfriend. Never mind that most of the Indonesian community here hate me.
Study. Shop. Eat. Flirt. Bear in mind that no matter what I do, I'll never be immune to heartbreaks. I might be sad today thanks to some jerk, but I'll be my good old chirpy self from tomorrow on. Oh, and romance stories are crap. And I must give retail therapies a try.
Gone shopping. I hope Supre is still open. Toodles!
EDIT: The tee that I wanted was gone. Fuck. I saw it on Monday. Had I known that I would need it in the next few days I'd have bought it right away.
Dad. Look, I know this is bad of me but I still hold you responsible for this. I know why you sired me in the first place. You were nearly 30 when I was born, and I know you made a list of the things you had to achieve by the time you hit 30 like everybody else. Successful career, check. Fast car, check. Master's degree, check. Wife, check. Kids, check. I was just another thing you needed to make you feel accomplished. But dad...*sigh* I'm not another thing on your to-do list. I'm more than just another mouth to feed. You not only have to feed my mouth, but my soul too. I wish you had been there telling me what boys would be like, what they would do. I wish you had been there helping me with my homework. I wish you had been there all through my hormone-driven teens. But after all my failed attempts to reach out to you, I can only keep wishing.
Thursday, February 16, 2006, 05:07 p.m.
bete part sekian
I'm soo getting that tee tomorrow. Never mind that I'm almost broke.
You make me cry more than he did. Congratulations.
BTW, that's Caleb...I took the piccie about two days before leaving on a jet plane for Indo, back in November. He's half Samoan and half Caucasian, hence the confusing look. Believe me he looks better in real life!Listening to: nothing
Wednesday, February 15, 2006, 07:03 p.m.
examListening to: nothing
Alright guys...you have no choice but to wish me luck. I'm having the FTVMS exam in exactly two hours. I must pass this with a B, not a C.
Mariam was right. You're a slut AND a try-hard. Yea those guys might like you because you make out with about eight of them at the same time at parties, but they call you a slut behind your back. Guys gossip too, you know. And no, getting tatoos and piercings doesn't make you look any prettier.
Happy Valentine's Day everyone! Happy 24th birthday to Jeff and happy belated 23rd birthday to Redyan! You guys are grandpas...
Tuesday, February 14, 2006, 12:11 p.m.
guys and common sense3 Jobs I've Had In My Life
When I was into Freddy I was completely out of my mind. When I was into Casey I was also out of my mind, but not as bad. Ricky doesn't count because it was eons ago...By the time I was 20 I'd got over him. Now with him and Caleb (yeps, Cal and I have made up, and he's broken up with his girlfriend) I hang on to my common sense. So far so good.
Ok, this meme (?) here was stolen from Joanne's blog. She was my classmate in Women 205 and Caleb is our mutual mate. LOL.
Freelance sales person
...student?2 Movies I could watch over and over again
The Secret Garden (I've already watched it over and over again...)4 TV shows I love to watch:
E! True Hollywood Story
E! 101 Things...
Ghost Hunt (TV One?)
One Hit Wonders (Channel V)3 Places I've lived in
Surabaya (as a baby)
Auckland4 Places I've been on vacation to:
Singapore4 Places I'd rather be:
USA4 Of my favourite foods:
Baklava4 Websites I visit daily:
Who Do You Think He Are
My Friendster profile
Listening to: nothing
Sunday, February 12, 2006, 06:41 p.m.
nilai jelek...Listening to: birds singing outside.
I don't feel like blogging...How many days has it been since I last blogged? So yea I'm done with the Women 205 essay (I wasn't underlength this time!) and I've got my FTVMS 100 second essay result...which is ONLY SLIGHTLY better. A C+. Bugger. Apparently the only thing saving the mark was the fact that I wasn't underlength.
Can't wait can't wait for FTVMS 205! I hope we'll be studying past 20th century HK cinema too there. I love the Pang Brothers and their Eye trilogy! I hope my tutor for that paper is Graham again. LOL. Nothing, he's just cool although he sucks at private sessions...
Saturday, February 11, 2006, 09:36 a.m.